God is good. I was blessed to have Christian parents growing up and church was where I spent a lot of my time as a kid. I went to church every Sunday, went to Awana and attended a Christian elementary school so I knew all about God. I could win in any Bible quizzing competition. I knew when to raise my hands during praise and worship songs; I knew all the facts about Jesus. In third grade I went to a play called Heaven’s Gates and Hell’s Flames which freaked me out as it went through different scenes of people dying and either going to Heaven of being dragged away to Hell. Needless to say, as a third grader I was scared, but some pastor came up after the show and said if I just say a prayer then I wouldn’t go to Hell. I was in, because I knew I did not want to end up in hell.
My life continued, but there was no change in me and I realize now that I was just being a vampire, only after Jesus for the blood. I never had any major problems in my life until I started my first year of high school. I lost a lot of friends that year from just broken relationships to sickness to betrayal. I was completely alone. I fell into some rough stuff and really saw no point in living anymore. I just wanted to be done with this life and all the pain. Then on June 4th, 2008 I just gave up, to Jesus. I was laying in my bed and just prayed and gave my whole life to Jesus. I felt such a deep peace that I had never felt before and all I could do was sing so I belted out some Amazing Grace then went to sleep.
My life was changed after that day. I desired to spend time with my Savior and friend and serve him with my life. I went on my first mission trip that summer which reconfirmed my call to missions. And thats really why I enrolled at Nyack College, to prepare for the mission field where I plan on spending my life serving God’s precious children. It is insane how I ended up here mostly because I DID NOT want to be here and really hated it all first semester, but God is up to some really incredible things in my heart and here at Nyack. I really have grown to love it and know I am supposed to be here and can’t wait to see what God is gonna do next.